|Mei-mei Berssenbrugge [Steve Evans]|
A wood violet has bloomed, when I come back from my walk in early spring.
I stop and welcome it, cooing, walking around it, not as if I were floating, but the surface of the world circled unfurling petals.
Person and violet with so little in common my voice reveals as a resonance of unmanifest identify.
The violet looking back, loses objectivity and enters the expansion of recognized things.
You could say our identities reach out to encompass the forest environment, like telepathy: a moment opens space by rendering it transparent in intensified consciousness.
Others embrace weather and wild land as their means to the supra-sensible; in violets, it’s emotional desire for spring light: glitter, the mirror.
Connection, often the form emotion takes, appears to me as a visual image.
Thoughts are sent out by one rock informing other rocks as to the nature of its changing environment, the angle of sun and temperatures cooling as night falls, and even its (loosely called) emotional tone changes, the appearance of a person walking, who’s not appropriately empathic.
Thoughts meet and merge with other thoughts sent out, say, from foliage and other entities.
I tell you, your own thoughts and words can appear to inhabitants of other systems like stars and planets to us.
Intensities of thought, light and shadow between us, contain memories coiled, one within the other, through which I travel to you, and yet are beautifully undetermined.
For what you say to me is not finished within my thought or memory, but you grow there and change, the way a shadow extends as light passes over it in Akashic emptiness.
You grow through what I have to say to you, as a tree grows up through space, then what I have to say changes.
That’s why we need the identity of our physical forms.
Here, we don’t know what’s behind physical stars and planets.
The tree encompasses its changing form, while ego, my self of physical experience, looks in the past for something to recognize.
When he looks into my eyes, she said, I see adoration that makes me feel wonderful.
Then, I can do things.
Here we mean sun, alteration, myself are actions.
Imbalance between identity’s wish to maintain and intrinsic drives results in the exquisite by-product, consciousness of self, so richly creating a reality that seems plastic, but continues like a light beam, an endless series of beams.
Creativity breaks through identity, and my awareness flows through transparency as spontaneous synchronous phenomena experienced with others today.
Its light and weather spectacles are fantastically aesthetic.
The moment it sees me, the violet grows more deeply purple and luminous to me.
Its looking collapses violet frequency into a violet in the world, cohering attention and feeling.
What I perceive as a flower in woods may be the shadow of a flower-being’s action in fairyland, a transcendent domain of potentia.
Transparency I imagine moving through is being through, not actually seen or touched, not the buzzing of a million invisible bees.
What you call feeling, like connective tissue or vibrating lines between us, represents this vitality.
And I prefer the term vitality to time.
In fairyland, all violets are simultaneous.