|bell hooks [Denison Digital Research Commons]|
Mostly she is alone. And if she is in a group, you might say she is always performing. That's the only way she can bear the hemmed-in feeling she gets in groups, to be there and not there . . .
She thought he loved her for her mind. He was enchanted with her smart talk, her blunt speech, her ways of thinking about the world. Yet still and all he did not take her seriously. She did not know that though — not then, not in the beginning. . . .
She is blind to how he really sees her because she is arrogant — not in a bad way. You might say it's the arrogance of innocence. . . .
No, she did not love. All those times when she was claiming to love, she was really seeking to escape the anguish of unforgotten abandonment. She did not fall in love with him. She was drowning. She needed him to save her life.